At the moment I'm searching to regain that sense of peace I always feel when carving my totems. I'm floundering a bit but I have no doubt that with perseverance I will find that precious quietude again.
It has been an unerving few days. In South Africa there is nothing unusual about having intruders on your property but I still can't get used to the uneasy feeling that it leaves. On Thursday night my husband woke up from a deep sleep. Something caught his attention outside our window and upon investigation he saw what he thought was an enormous python undulating across the flower bed next to our bedroom window. It dawned on him that the python was in fact 2 or 3 men, leopard crawling, one behind the other. He clicked his fingers to alert our bull terrier and with that the men leaped up and literally flew effortlessly over our 6 foot wall.
We were so lucky! There has been a gang operating just outside of town. People have been tortured and someone we knew was murdered. We had just heard that the gang had been caught and we were feeling very relieved. I'm trying not to overreact because nothing actually happened to us or our property. It was a good wake up call to jolt us into upgrading our security. The three companies we have called to do the work can only start on Wednesday. One company to fix our alarm system, another to put up movement sensors outside and another company to bolt stronger burglar guards onto all our windows. A costly exercise but necessary. Until the improvements have been made we are sleeping fitfully.
Early this morning we noticed that the intruders had returned during the night. The strong 6 foot high gate leading into the courtyard was wide open and there were big muddy shoe prints everywhere. These people are obviously casing the area determined to get in but were disturbed once again.
My sense of calm is temporarily shattered. At the back of my mind is the thought of what might have happened had they got into the house. I am trying to focus on the things that bring me peace.
Appreciating my husband and my daughter.
Mindfully carving my totems.
Observing nature and being thankful.
Laughing at these comical monkeys that never fail to lighten a moment. So often I look up from my work to see these little faces looking at me.
This morning I read three blog posts in succession. Each one left me feeling a little better. Isn't it amazing how that happens? Just when I needed them.
Roxannes post about quiet moments. Her new header is a joy to behold!
Leslie's post about the little book of Stillness.
Donna's post about the Zen of Line and her beautiful collage which she calls, The Way.
Over the weekend I received caring emails from my friend Lyle.
The blog world continues to bring me so much comfort and inspiration. I think we are very lucky to have each other.
Ben, my guardian .... angel dog?